过了一年多，终于update blog 了

这一年多发生很多事了，我终于毕业了！ 从痛苦中解脱，从来没有这么开心过~ :)
感情生活还是一片空白，跟我的ex BR*** 分开竟然是因为一个跟我有过肉体关系的人，S**.
我看这辈子都是注定单恋，过后又单恋了Wi***** ，好不容易忘了他.. 又单恋Ae***...
为什么我遇到的都是个个都是一个样，T.T 对我忽冷忽热... 单身要迈进了两年。。
算了。。我这辈子都会一直孤单...孤单

10/8

Why people can change so fast within a while. ZXXX , i really dont know what you want....! Tired of it, can you just say what you want. Cry.... tired of being a fool. T.T 2 more weeks will be finale and busy assignment like hell. No much time left for study.Haiz.... dont know can be able to tahan or not. God, just give me strength to pass through the following weeks... >.<

So fan and down mood!!

T.T Thinking too much again! I feel fan due to my assignments + midterm that seem cannot finish. Then just now after I listen 疯-汤小康 song, omg...dont know why my tear keep 流不停。 The lyrics of this song so suit my feeling now. Really need a hug !! After keep on meet with same kind of guy(love my body more than me...just want sex), I feel tired on it. May be i not lucky compare with others. Now, I really feel no confident at all already in this p circle after having the same relationship with those guys. So now, I long time no date with any p. Even gt date, me might reject. Haiz, so scare to get hurt again and in relationship. Now, dont know why I am already fear of dating with guys.安全感　It really painful... oh god....how long will I continue suffer .... >,<

"想知道你是否还是一样歌
有没有学会比较坚强词
你快乐的背后有失望转
你何曾在意当时我也是这样被你伤
想明白为何对我那么冷淡音
有回来故事会不会是这样魁
明知道你不会再回头看网
我还是一直以为
一直以为有希望
像疯了一样
越想你就越心伤
我多么爱你
却难逃你的魔掌
像疯了一样
你缺少了安全感
你让我多么难堪
却还是一样把我伤　
想明白为何对我那么冷淡　
有回来故事会不会是这样　
明知道你不会再回头看　
我还是一直以为　
一直以为有希望　
像疯了一样　
越想你就越心伤　
我多么爱你　
却难逃你的魔掌　
像疯了一样　
你缺少了安全感　
你让我多么难堪　
却还是一样把我伤　
像疯了一样　
越想你就越心伤　
我多么爱你　
却难逃你的魔掌　
像疯了一样　
你缺少了安全感　
你让我多么难堪　
却还是一样把我伤"

American Idol 8 winner ~ Kris Allen

YEAH~~~ Kris Allen become this season winner!!! ^^ Luckily that weird rocker, Adam Lambert lose!!! This is the 1st time my favorite American idol contestant become winner!Hurray~~but i still like the two version of their single ,No Boundaries.Kris Allen so leng zai ....leng zai....!! OMG, me cant stand his smile and eye. His smile so charming... :p and his voice so nice. I hope he can release new album soon!! ^^

好累...

我才Diploma 毕业了不久，Advanced Diploma就开课！Haiz,好舍不得那些没继续升学的ex-classmates...
我的 timetable 好烂，monday n friday 都上课到7点！最早放学的时间也只是5点...每天上课都上到好累!! ><
再加上，最近被"TXXXX"弄到我好Down...我心里又怕他像RXXX一样伤害我！！= =

6/4

Today morning happen a very embarrass thing! When i wake up, i listen my roomate beside me moan. So, i open my eye and look at my roomate side. OMG, my roomate is FUCKING his bf.
= = , so i close my eye immediately and turn my body to another side. Then,they go into the bath room... Luckily, today my class is in morning..so i go for class after this incident.Haiz..dnt know why they r so desperate,they should do when i am not around...

At nite , i receive a news "阿桑" pass away. OMG..i cant believe it!! Her voice so nice n even her song.Haiz,quite sad when i know this news. :(

23/3

Long time do not update my blog. Just complete my tamadun islam assignment so update my blog.Recently i quite down... -.- ,just reject by a guy call JXXX. I feel so stupid for waiting him even he attach. He just break up few weeks ago,then i thought i will have chance. BUT ... he told me we just can be friend... and until now no contact with me anymore. May be i m not cute and handsome enough! So..dnt cry for this guy anymore,k? i always tell myself and make my life busy,dnt want think of him. BUT sometimes still cannot control my tears... So,recently i like listen this fish song,别再为他流泪.. >< I always thinking why my friends around me mostly having lover..BUT not me! May be my character scare people away?I look ugly? I am not talkative enough? My mind keep thinking these questions..I want the answer ...!! Haiz...it make me want give up of finding my fate.