So fan and down mood!!

T.T Thinking too much again! I feel fan due to my assignments + midterm that seem cannot finish. Then just now after I listen 疯-汤小康 song, omg...dont know why my tear keep 流不停。 The lyrics of this song so suit my feeling now. Really need a hug !! After keep on meet with same kind of guy(love my body more than me...just want sex), I feel tired on it. May be i not lucky compare with others. Now, I really feel no confident at all already in this p circle after having the same relationship with those guys. So now, I long time no date with any p. Even gt date, me might reject. Haiz, so scare to get hurt again and in relationship. Now, dont know why I am already fear of dating with guys.安全感　It really painful... oh god....how long will I continue suffer .... >,<

"想知道你是否还是一样歌
有没有学会比较坚强词
你快乐的背后有失望转
你何曾在意当时我也是这样被你伤
想明白为何对我那么冷淡音
有回来故事会不会是这样魁
明知道你不会再回头看网
我还是一直以为
一直以为有希望
像疯了一样
越想你就越心伤
我多么爱你
却难逃你的魔掌
像疯了一样
你缺少了安全感
你让我多么难堪
却还是一样把我伤　
想明白为何对我那么冷淡　
有回来故事会不会是这样　
明知道你不会再回头看　
我还是一直以为　
一直以为有希望　
像疯了一样　
越想你就越心伤　
我多么爱你　
却难逃你的魔掌　
像疯了一样　
你缺少了安全感　
你让我多么难堪　
却还是一样把我伤　
像疯了一样　
越想你就越心伤　
我多么爱你　
却难逃你的魔掌　
像疯了一样　
你缺少了安全感　
你让我多么难堪　
却还是一样把我伤"